As many of you already know, I’ve probably already said that 2010 is guna be a great year. I feel something awaiting for me in the upcoming year (which is soon). Oh so exciting!

2010 is not guna be an ordinary year. It will be different. It’s no more about not doing anything, but about doing something.

1. Singapore, Singapore, Singapore!!!!!
2. Bali in June baby!! Hell yeah!
3. Paint my room soft green.
4. Start blind dating… shocking to some, but it’s true.

I guess I’m just sick and tired of feeling alone and jealous of seeing other people having a love life.

I have no love life and have had none for 19 years. It’s time to take action. Since I’ve been inspired and motivated by a television show [silly i know] called Date Patrol, it hit me! If a 27-year-old divorcee can get a relli cute guy by taking a chance on love and flirting, then I certainly can too!

I’m still young and fed up with whining. I realized [i have many realizations lately] that I talk and complain about how dull my love life is yet I have never done anything about it.

It is time to make a change!

“Love is not getting, but giving, not a wild dream of pleasure, and madness of desire— it is goodness, and honor, and peace and pure living.”
-Henry van Dyke

No words describe things better than this:

I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you

Maybe soon it’ll be hugging my own guy and holding his hands… Amen. =)

So I talked to my mom on the phone yesterday and it was a blissful conversation.

I’m looking forward to 2010. Do come faster, Baby New Year!

Me: Iya dede pesan tiket pesawat sekarang mumpung lagi promosi…
Mom: Oh yaudah, kamu atur aja. Yaudah… mama mau urusin anak kamu (my dogs) dulu.

*almost hung up the phone*

Me: Eh ma ma ma… kalau dede k Singapur, masih ke Bali kan nantinya?
Mama: Ha? Oh, iya iya masih jadi.
Me: Yay! Dede cuman mau check aja. hehe

Yesssss!!

Here’s a few words from Injil Matius. I love this part of the Holy Bible [not trying to go all religious on you people], and I believe in it strongly.

“Mintalah, maka akan diberikan kepadamu;
Carilah, maka kamu akan mendapat;
Ketoklah, maka pintu akan dibukakan bagimu.

Karena setiap orang yang meminta, menerima, dan setiap orang yang mencari, mendapat, dan setiap orang yg mengetok, baginya pintu dibukakan.”

Indeed it is true. Thank you Lord. I will doubt You no longer.

I smile thinking of him cuz it makes me happy.

I know I like him but I’m afraid. Just like most crushes, I’m afraid of it not working out again.

Fear. It’s what’s keeping me back.

Taking a leap is what I want to do but only if it means you’ll be mine.

I don’t know what the future holds and I’m terrified.

I’m not the type who can sit back and relax on unanswered questions and uncertainty.

But you, Mr. Z, is floating around inside my head. In class I look at the board but what I think of is you.

Indeed I am happy to feel this way again. It’s exhilarating, truly!

I don’t know if you’ll ever be mine or if you like me back.

So pardon me while I watch from a distance and let life pass me by without making an effort in getting closer to you.

Is it just me?

Or does he feel it too?

Do I want this?

Why am I so confused?

Can’t this brick wall just fall down and let me take chance on love again?!

I feel it

and

I can’t deny it.

Yes, I do like you, Mister X.

Wow! I’m finally writing something down instead of just posting quotes off my favorite quote website. lol.

A lot has happened recently in my life. Well not necessarily, but I’ve done a lot of activities and been part of a few events.

First of, GINTRE. Like wow! Totally tiring and hellish, but well worth the pain and stress! I’ll miss working with the girls, but I see them around campus anyway so it’s okay. lol!

Second of, UTS PrakDip. Today was so much fun! We are soooo together as a team (far beyond what I had expected, honestly). It wasn’t tiring for us, as much as it was rather boring sitting in the seat listening to ‘06 talk about Services. Hmm ya ya…
But honestly, I enjoyed it and it was just real fun! Protocol is the bomb-diggity!

Personal moment:

In my little group of friends, Cupid has shot its love arrow and hit Dea whilst another love arrow still remains in Abie’s heart.

I just got to thinking, I want a boyfriend. Okay, not necessarily that part; I just want somebody to love (besides family and friends) and somebody to love me back.

It’s been awhile since I’ve cared oh so deeply for anyone. Even though I have this gut instinct that my special someone isn’t in FISIP UNPAR, I won’t give up. I believe someone is out there but it’s beyond frustrating having to wait and find a guy to like.

It’s not that I need a life to steer my thoughts away from wanting a guy since it can be distracting, but this time… I relli do want a guy to call my own.

Boys boys… I can certainly live without them, but I just choose not to. lol!